FRIENDSHIP!!! WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO YOU?

      Growing up, i've always cherished pure friendship that doesn't come in forceful affection or association.
    There's  this friend of mine, how we met, i can't remember but we practically did every thing together. His parents house was just next to ours, I think I was only 9 or 10 then. To my mum and dad, they were just neighbors but thanks to our Friendship, we became more than just neighbors.
    We are very close, we had beautiful memories together and trust me that was the best kinda friendship I've ever experienced.. Up till date..No beef, no gossip, no betrayal, no 'leading on', all those yama yama things we do now..lol
   I don't know if I'm the one who's got the wrong perception of what friendship should look like or what I have with my childhood friend is just a fairy tale because the definition of friendship people portray today is not just what its supposed to be, at least not to me.
    I grew up, met different kinda people hoping they would all be like my childhood friend after when he went to do one long course in UAE and left somebody here..lol. But trust me, nothing compared to him....
On the long journey, I only end up trusting people, loving them, being there for them only to find out they won't do the same and if they do, there'll have to be some kinda advantage to them... Well, that's life I guess.
  A wise scholar once said; " Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are a good person is like expecting a bull not to attack yoi because you think you are a vegeterian.
    I figured out people will only come to you when they need something they know you can give at that moment and after that, they are out. Some will only want to be friends with you because they want you to accept their religion. No offence against religion but I'm like  aunty i never even embrace mine finish, find another approach biko..lol.and when they find out you are not doing that, you are so an unbeliever, and when you are an unbeliever, they stop coming, they stop being nice, they stop listening and they dissapear..
    I've seen girls take group pictures, be there for each other, claim to love one another, do birthday showers together.. Lol, that shit is getting more epic this days. But I always feel like puking when there happens to be a misunderstanding and I hear what comes out of their mouth..O boy, its really ugly! Well, i know when we are angry, most people tend to say ugly stuffs but we can really differentiate between words out of anger and words out of envy, spite and what have you.
   Some will only be your friend out of pity for you. They've noticed you get lonely, and people disappoint you alot and for a little while, they become extraordinarily nice and goofy around you but it won't last long..you know why?.. There was no real love or connection initially..
   Someone please enlighten me if I'm missing it but what exactly is friendship supposed to look like, feel like...
   People ignore friendship and focus more on the 'romantic relationship' as if that's they only place we can find love but it isn't the only place love exists. I've seen friendship that are deeper and more pure than couples who swear its forever, yet we ignore friendship.
    Maybe someday, I'll meet another  one, maybe I should just be grateful to mother nature for making me meet that beautiful one when I was just a little girl..
     Maybe mother nature is trying to tell me that one friend is just enough buh who and who will make my bridal train na because this friend I'm talking about is a dude oo.lol
   So in class or anywhere I can smile, play with you, play pranks on you,return your smiles ofcourse, lol but when people ask me who that person is to me, I simply say ' my course mate or my colleague. So even when it seems I'm being close to you, I tend to retract my steps too so as not to get too close, You know why? I really can't afford to be broken down when this person hurts me, because I'm 💯 fragile. And note that its not only the 'boyfriend/girlfriend' tingy that cause heartbreak, when it comes to friendship, it could feel worse.
     So you alone can love yourself, you alone can make yourself better,loving yourself, having fun and being happy.                
     Scold yourself and bring yourself up when there's no one to assist you.. Be there for yourself, and you could get lucky and meet that beautiful soul who will be incomparable,a friend and almost family.
   This might not make sense to a lot of people but I'm sure there's someone out there who can relate to this..
    The world can be pretty messed up a times and when you noticed you are surrounded by people who don't really give a damn or pretend to, try as much as possible to enjoy your very own company.. Trust me, it'll save you a lot of heartaches and troubles..
    So be careful, choose your friends wisely, because the people you surround yourself with will also determine your success. They either bring you down or push you up...
   You can also share your experience in the comment box and tell us what friendship means to you.. Much love!
   I hope I made sense! Have a lovely day y'all. *kisses*